I am going to come out and say it. I am a spineless waste of a human being. I have always been spineless and I am gay, I can't stand up for myself. One of my first experiences was when I was seventeen and I was working at the Jamba Juice at the mall. The shift leader was a guy in his late twenties and he would grab my ass or grab me by the hips and hump my ass. He would put notes in my pants pocket, like 'I like a tight ass', You are going to suck and you know it', 'You're going to swallow', 'I have a dick for you', 'I am going to fuck you, fuck you, fuck you', 'You love dick, admit it'. I have all the notes.

One night I was waiting for my mother to come pick me up and he found me standing beside the dumpster at Macy's where my Mom picked me up and he pulled me behind the dumpster and told me that it was time I showed him love. He opened his pants and told me to suck, suck, suck, to make it worth his while, to show him why I loved dick. I was scared my Mom was going to come by but he was pushing my head down so I sucked him dick and he told me to lower my pants so he could fuck me.

The next day he was fired and I was fired because the security guard saw him and me. He came to my house and he got his revenge making me suck him again and this time he fucked me. I was embarrassed and didn't tell anyone.

After I graduated from high school I took summer courses at the community college. An old man was taking the same courses and he took me to his car and I sucked his dick. He also made out with me and jacked me off. During the whole course I went to his place and sucked him and he fucked me and he liked to make out. I really liked it when he fucked me even more than sucking him and I liked making out with him while he jacked me off. I wanted to go live with him but he didn't want that.

I dropped out of college and went to work as a waiter in a pizza parlor. The restaurant was owned by this Italian guy and I sucked him in the office almost every day I worked and he liked to fuck me, even more than that the man from the community college. I really liked getting fucked. One night I got off work and I saw this man who had been in the restaurant sitting in his car and he called me over and asked me to suck his dick. I got in his car and we went to this empty parking garage and I was able to suck him, he didn't make me stop and it was the first time I got to swallow a complete mouthful. I wanted to make out with him but he didn't want to.

I moved to Chicago where I live now and I work at the Whole Foods and I make contact there with men who want to go out with me. I love to suck, I love to fuck and I love to make out. I just can't say no, I am a pushover for a dick, a spineless gay pushover. I stay in shape but I will suck any dick, I am not into just one type.