So my girlfriend who I've been with for 3 years now is great. I love her more than anything. When we first started dating though I found a journal of stuff she had confessed. In there was a bunch of guys she had slept with, even some names or descriptions. Some she cheated on past boyfriends with, some that were older or married. I was angry even though these were people from the past but never told her I read this stuff. There was a legit good amount of guys on the list, a lot more men than I have been with girls. Not to mention she's 6 years younger than me. After being together awhile I realized she was beyond talented, clearly her being with so many guys before me was evident by how freaky she was. I loved it though because I have a high sexual energy too. So after being together over a year or two at this point I kept remembering the list. It started to turn me on thinking about her basically being a whore before we met. So I'd jerk off whenever I wouldn't be around to the thought of her getting fucked by other guys. I'd kill her if I knew she cheated on me but thinking about it got me off. It still does actually, right now do to work we really only see each other on weekends and all week I jerk off daily to thinking about her getting fucked by other men. I even went as far as to spread some private pictures around the Internet just to see other guys comments on the stimulation it gave them. She had no idea about this at all. I can't deny though that it really gets me hard thinking about her being fucked. I've wanted to share our video to and hear what guys would do to her. I don't think she's cheated on me I hope not, it'd kill me. But I really can't stop jerking off to the thought of her being a slut and being used by random guys.