It is kind of hard to admit things, sometimes. I live in a small town and our extended family is really close. I was thirteen and my older cousin would grab me and hold me down and dry hump me. It is just so hard to explain how good it felt. I am older now and it doesn't feel the same, but back then it felt so good. I guess that is how I masturbated. First he had to get me down on my face and get my legs spread open just right and he got his dick lined up with my butt crack and he went up and down my butt crack until he lost his load on my back. It didn't matter if I was in a dress, or pants or my pajamas, he got my butt naked lined up his dick and rubbed himself in my crack. I could feel his dick with my butt hole, I guess that is what was so sensitive and made me like it.

Of all the things I did as a kid that is one that I wish I could feel again. Like I said I am too old now and when I ask for it I end up getting fucked anyway, his dick slides down and into me and he fucks away like that. He knows how much I liked it but he can't resist and he doesn't want to shoot into the air. I love that he fucks me, I love that we are first cousins and that we committing a sin, I love when he kisses me on the lips in front of my mother and she goes mad telling him to get away from me. She knows I suck his dick all the time. She knows he fucks me all the time. She says we are going to Hell and that if I have kids with him they are going to be monsters.

I should tell her how he humped me when I was little, but I don't want to give her a heart attack.