I am forty and I am in an extramarital relationship. I got involved with him in my mid twenties and he was in his late forties. He was bored at home and I was his way of bringing excitement back into his life. I am in this on my own, I love him and so you are the mistress. He is on medication for BP and he hurt his back and is on pain treatment. So he has ED really bad and nothing works, his Dr. says the pain meds are probably the cause. I love him and I can't help him and he is so frustrated. I have to be strong and wear my big girl panties and just love him and reassure him. I really don't care if we can't have sex anymore, I am going to stand by my man regardless.

I also have to look after his wife, I am praying that she goes into remission but her cancer took everything out of her. I have never been so close to how bad cancer is and the treatments. I pray for her everyday. She needs me right now, and he needs my help. Sometimes it is better for women to take care of women. I took a ninety day leave to look after her and take her to her chemo and sit with her.

I am just out of energy, I hold myself up, I want him to be proud of me. I want her to get well and stop being sick.

I am sorry, I just need to cry, I don't want her to die.