As a young kid and through college and my four years in the service I serviced men. I kept my activities secret. For the last thirty years I stayed away. I am now divorced and living alone. I made friends with the shoe sales clerk at Macy's and whether he or I gave indications I don't know but however we got started I serviced a man again.

He is well integrated into an active group of like minded men and he introduced me into the group. In the last several weeks I serviced five different men. I feel a deep desire for it, I can't satisfy myself. I have also taken up masturbation again. I am not ready for a one on one relationship, I want to get it out of my system first. I don't want a reputation, but the offers are out there and I can't turn them down.