Straight Male / 55
Now i can say and take some comfort by saying when this went on it was the 70's although i did not know that those years was as we all know now peedos heaven, i was a quiet kid a bit shy and socially awkward my home life was ok but not either loving or abusive, but always felt and knew that i was just not quiet good enough and always felt that i was a burden so i just kept my self to my self and drifted through each day one at a time, one day at school there was a notice up saying that the st johns ambulance club had openings for ages 10/11 and some others and there was a big thing about how getting all your certificates would mean you would be respected by all and so on, it was open night in the church hall that wed from 7 to 9 for anyone, so to try to make people not look down at me and shake there heads i thought if i did that i would be liked,
so i went and other boys and girls were there i knew them all some were same age as me some older, we looked around and the boys and girls that were already in their uniform told us about how cool it was and such, and then we had a talk from the leader about it and how even from the first time we attend enrollment and club we would be respected as a life saver and so on, anyone that turned up every week and did as taught and tried their hardest would have the respect of everyone from school friends through to teachers and any official people we came in contact with as soon as they knew we were st johns ambulance they would all treat us with respect, so i asked if i could join but was told that we all had to apply and as there was not loads of space they would let the ones that were chose know, so i left knowing i was not going to get in but i was told by my teacher i had got chosen.
i was made up and went each week learning how to tie bandages and make splints and other things, i dont know why i did what i did but i soon regreted it, i noticed that the subs tin was kept upstairs in the blankets cupboard so started making sure i was the one folding the blankets at the end of the club, it just started with me taking back my subs, but then more as it seemed so easy and i had seen them just take the tin and empty it into the big bag that was kept inthe leaders safe and never counted whhat was in it, so i thought i was safe,one night as everyone left to go home it always finished at 9.30 the leader asked if i could stay back for a bit and if need be to make sure i didnt get home late they would give me a lift but he wanted a quick word , i said ok not worried a bit, well when everyone had gone , i was alone in the church hall , and he came out of his office and said please follow me , so i did up stairs to the blanket cupboard and said i know you have been stealing and have even got you doing it on cini film and with that ran the projector and on if i could be seen going in the subs tin hidden behind a blanket and not just once but often,i actually did feel shit for doing it but that film hit hard.
i was told to o home and think about what i had done and we would talk next week and until then he promised not to say anything about this until when we spoke if he felt it was his only choice, but imagine what everyone would think if he had to report me, and with that he said be on time next week and ready to learn not steal. such a long week but then it was time so i went to the club and it was as normal, at some point he said at the end so no one asks what you have done i wont ask you to stay behind but you are to find a way to leave with everyone but come back alone and with no one nowing ok, i nodded so as we all made our way from the church hall to the village and home after a fair bit i said to those i was with that i had left my school uniform behind and needed it for tomorrow so said see you all later i need to run before its locked up and ran off,i got back to the hall and went in not knowing if the police was waiting for me or what was going to happen, i was sniffling as i went in, he was stood there and said stop crying this is all your doing no one else has caused this have they, again he said have they no chief no one, i am so sorry chief, you should have thought of that before you stole from all these good people , you need to know how low and evil just what you have done, stealing money from a charity and that money was to buy uniforms for the new recruits including you, but because of you those boys and girls who earn the privilege of wearing there uniform and proudly show the world they are full st johns medics, will not get that privilege as you have stole their money , are you proud of what you have done and shall i show everyone the secret film of you stealing out of that tin , well shall i he said , i begged not to and kept saying sorry and i would never do it again, then he gave me two choices i could deal with what happens when he releases that film,
then he gave me another choice, i could choose either number one being reported for stealing from the club or number 2, agree to him choosing my punishment and doing exactly as told without question , and not asking why or refusing or not doing exactly as told and never telling anyone about it and he would never tell anyone what i did or show them, so he said then think now take your chances or agree to do anything you are told by me and not ever say no, and before you choose i shall say this if i show the police and your dad the film you pretty much know what will happen ,inc borstall and shame but if you choose the other choice you have no idea but will know you have agreed to obay, so make your choice, i said what will i have to do if i choose 2, he said no you will find out make your choice or shall i just phone the village bobby, i said 2 please 2. so he ok so from now on and untill you leave school you will do as told when you leave school i will burn the film in front of you but until then you will obay me , do you agree i said yes, then he said well its to late to start now next week miss class tell the others you feel poorly during the daytime so they wont miss you and wait done the road till they all go and when i am alone i will turn the outside lights off then it will be safe for you to come in ,ok i said yes and so i did and went in, he was waiting and had closed all the shutters and most of the lights were off ,he said in my office now ,so i went in him following he closed the door after turning all the other lights in the hall off, then he said remember without question or defiance your first order is undress completely and do it now, i looked at him shocked but got my hair pulled and told you chose 2, now that is the last time you will hesitate do you hear i said yes, and so i did as told not understanding why or anything , i was only about 10 years at that time,so i did and as i stood there he said to me that i will obay him always or my punishment will be hell on earth. and was told to lay across his desk as he spanked me, he did spank a lot but not so hard that it made me cry, i had been hit with a belt harder at school for playing about, but after that he said do not move or else, and i felt cold on my cheeks and then between them and as he put it on said say not one word or else, so i said nothing i felt the i thought cream on my cheeks and then between them but then right between them and then as he was spreading it arond there i felt his hand right against my bum and was scared but said nothing then he pulled away but a few secs later was back and could feel loads of it it was slapped on me , and then his finger was on my bum and he pushed it against me , he got it in me and was pushing it in and out and then i felf another finger he did that untill i think three was going in and out, it was not nice but didnt hurt so much, as he took them out he moved around behind me and i felt my bum with something against it i thought he was using his fingers again but soon realized it wasn't his fingers , but didnt know what, but soon found out what it was as i felt it push inside me and him driving it in and pulling it out for a while then i was told to get up and turn around and face him so i did, and then he sat me on his desk and made sure i knew what was happening and why, funny thing was although i had to do what he said, it wasn't that bad i mean i didnt like it but it didnt bother me either. so i did as told and got very well looked after for doing as told and not crying, i was not going to get done for stealing from the club so as long as no one found out i didnt care about what he told me to do, i got used to doing what i had to, and it meant nothing, but it took no time to be able to see that lookin an eye as a grown up spoke to me or others, i could soon tell who else around us was like him just by looking and hearing all the same things being said to others as had been said to me,lots of grown men that we all was in their company was like that ,i saw it everyday, at school at youth club some of my mates dads even girl mates so many looked the same, but i knew i was his secret as he was mine never did he say anything to anyone that made it clear what was happening, so as time went on and the same thing happened each time only difference was office or upstairs on the balcony. so i decided to see if he wasnt going to show me if i was right about the others i would find out for myself, and i chose to check my theory on my mates dad, i had seen him looking with that look and was sure he was one, i used to stop at his and on a camp bed in his room but the box room was decorated and a bed put in it so his mum said when you stay in future use that room as yours so it will be more comfortable for you and give him more space , so i said ah thanks aunty val, and i stayed a lot, one night i got up to pee and when i went back to my room left the door open a bit enough to be able to see the bed, and with the landing light on the room was lite enough to see in, so i lay on the bed in just my pj bottoms no top and on my back and undid my pj's and had them by my knees as i played with my cock and i was only about 11 then but had seen enough and done enough to know how to do it , and for some reason it got hard as i played and started doing a proper wank on it up and down and twisting it in my hand and i was doing all the ball playing nipple stroking arse hole probing as carefully looking at the door and i knew he had come out of their bedroom and gone to toilet just after me, then i saw him stood back watching as i wanked, so i rolled over still cock in hand and on my knees fucked my hole with my fingers, and as i was he walked in and very quietly said what are you doing and i said sorry i thought i was in private, please dont tell , he said i am shocked so i said can we go down stairs and talk he said yes and when we got there he said i am shocked that you was doing that and i said would you be more shocked if i said i was thinking of you as i was ,or would you like that, he said shocked and like it, so i said well your son does not do that but i do and if you want to you can, he said no , but i said ok then you caught me so tell me what you thought as i saw you watch as i played with it thinking if you liked it and you watched for over 10 mins , and then sat next to him on the settee and pulled it out and played in seconds he had grabbed my hand and guided it to his hard cock and i was right he was the same as he had what he wanted and i said nothing, after that just to know what arsehole grown men were i checked out so many , some really important people, some club members, some police,, some teachers,,, some from church, after a bit it stopped amazing me how many men were fucking boys and girls ,so many were, so many , it happened in school, and at army cadets and at more than one friends house, and a police car once, and lots in the bushes at the park, so i did as told and no questions , just what he said and got used to it he spanked and fucked that arse lots but , as it didnt bother me that much i made sure that i checked out all the perves around and got them all to fuck me, and they did, and that was what happened, i didnt care it was shit, and things only count if you let them get to your emotions i never did
so i went and other boys and girls were there i knew them all some were same age as me some older, we looked around and the boys and girls that were already in their uniform told us about how cool it was and such, and then we had a talk from the leader about it and how even from the first time we attend enrollment and club we would be respected as a life saver and so on, anyone that turned up every week and did as taught and tried their hardest would have the respect of everyone from school friends through to teachers and any official people we came in contact with as soon as they knew we were st johns ambulance they would all treat us with respect, so i asked if i could join but was told that we all had to apply and as there was not loads of space they would let the ones that were chose know, so i left knowing i was not going to get in but i was told by my teacher i had got chosen.
i was made up and went each week learning how to tie bandages and make splints and other things, i dont know why i did what i did but i soon regreted it, i noticed that the subs tin was kept upstairs in the blankets cupboard so started making sure i was the one folding the blankets at the end of the club, it just started with me taking back my subs, but then more as it seemed so easy and i had seen them just take the tin and empty it into the big bag that was kept inthe leaders safe and never counted whhat was in it, so i thought i was safe,one night as everyone left to go home it always finished at 9.30 the leader asked if i could stay back for a bit and if need be to make sure i didnt get home late they would give me a lift but he wanted a quick word , i said ok not worried a bit, well when everyone had gone , i was alone in the church hall , and he came out of his office and said please follow me , so i did up stairs to the blanket cupboard and said i know you have been stealing and have even got you doing it on cini film and with that ran the projector and on if i could be seen going in the subs tin hidden behind a blanket and not just once but often,i actually did feel shit for doing it but that film hit hard.
i was told to o home and think about what i had done and we would talk next week and until then he promised not to say anything about this until when we spoke if he felt it was his only choice, but imagine what everyone would think if he had to report me, and with that he said be on time next week and ready to learn not steal. such a long week but then it was time so i went to the club and it was as normal, at some point he said at the end so no one asks what you have done i wont ask you to stay behind but you are to find a way to leave with everyone but come back alone and with no one nowing ok, i nodded so as we all made our way from the church hall to the village and home after a fair bit i said to those i was with that i had left my school uniform behind and needed it for tomorrow so said see you all later i need to run before its locked up and ran off,i got back to the hall and went in not knowing if the police was waiting for me or what was going to happen, i was sniffling as i went in, he was stood there and said stop crying this is all your doing no one else has caused this have they, again he said have they no chief no one, i am so sorry chief, you should have thought of that before you stole from all these good people , you need to know how low and evil just what you have done, stealing money from a charity and that money was to buy uniforms for the new recruits including you, but because of you those boys and girls who earn the privilege of wearing there uniform and proudly show the world they are full st johns medics, will not get that privilege as you have stole their money , are you proud of what you have done and shall i show everyone the secret film of you stealing out of that tin , well shall i he said , i begged not to and kept saying sorry and i would never do it again, then he gave me two choices i could deal with what happens when he releases that film,
then he gave me another choice, i could choose either number one being reported for stealing from the club or number 2, agree to him choosing my punishment and doing exactly as told without question , and not asking why or refusing or not doing exactly as told and never telling anyone about it and he would never tell anyone what i did or show them, so he said then think now take your chances or agree to do anything you are told by me and not ever say no, and before you choose i shall say this if i show the police and your dad the film you pretty much know what will happen ,inc borstall and shame but if you choose the other choice you have no idea but will know you have agreed to obay, so make your choice, i said what will i have to do if i choose 2, he said no you will find out make your choice or shall i just phone the village bobby, i said 2 please 2. so he ok so from now on and untill you leave school you will do as told when you leave school i will burn the film in front of you but until then you will obay me , do you agree i said yes, then he said well its to late to start now next week miss class tell the others you feel poorly during the daytime so they wont miss you and wait done the road till they all go and when i am alone i will turn the outside lights off then it will be safe for you to come in ,ok i said yes and so i did and went in, he was waiting and had closed all the shutters and most of the lights were off ,he said in my office now ,so i went in him following he closed the door after turning all the other lights in the hall off, then he said remember without question or defiance your first order is undress completely and do it now, i looked at him shocked but got my hair pulled and told you chose 2, now that is the last time you will hesitate do you hear i said yes, and so i did as told not understanding why or anything , i was only about 10 years at that time,so i did and as i stood there he said to me that i will obay him always or my punishment will be hell on earth. and was told to lay across his desk as he spanked me, he did spank a lot but not so hard that it made me cry, i had been hit with a belt harder at school for playing about, but after that he said do not move or else, and i felt cold on my cheeks and then between them and as he put it on said say not one word or else, so i said nothing i felt the i thought cream on my cheeks and then between them but then right between them and then as he was spreading it arond there i felt his hand right against my bum and was scared but said nothing then he pulled away but a few secs later was back and could feel loads of it it was slapped on me , and then his finger was on my bum and he pushed it against me , he got it in me and was pushing it in and out and then i felf another finger he did that untill i think three was going in and out, it was not nice but didnt hurt so much, as he took them out he moved around behind me and i felt my bum with something against it i thought he was using his fingers again but soon realized it wasn't his fingers , but didnt know what, but soon found out what it was as i felt it push inside me and him driving it in and pulling it out for a while then i was told to get up and turn around and face him so i did, and then he sat me on his desk and made sure i knew what was happening and why, funny thing was although i had to do what he said, it wasn't that bad i mean i didnt like it but it didnt bother me either. so i did as told and got very well looked after for doing as told and not crying, i was not going to get done for stealing from the club so as long as no one found out i didnt care about what he told me to do, i got used to doing what i had to, and it meant nothing, but it took no time to be able to see that lookin an eye as a grown up spoke to me or others, i could soon tell who else around us was like him just by looking and hearing all the same things being said to others as had been said to me,lots of grown men that we all was in their company was like that ,i saw it everyday, at school at youth club some of my mates dads even girl mates so many looked the same, but i knew i was his secret as he was mine never did he say anything to anyone that made it clear what was happening, so as time went on and the same thing happened each time only difference was office or upstairs on the balcony. so i decided to see if he wasnt going to show me if i was right about the others i would find out for myself, and i chose to check my theory on my mates dad, i had seen him looking with that look and was sure he was one, i used to stop at his and on a camp bed in his room but the box room was decorated and a bed put in it so his mum said when you stay in future use that room as yours so it will be more comfortable for you and give him more space , so i said ah thanks aunty val, and i stayed a lot, one night i got up to pee and when i went back to my room left the door open a bit enough to be able to see the bed, and with the landing light on the room was lite enough to see in, so i lay on the bed in just my pj bottoms no top and on my back and undid my pj's and had them by my knees as i played with my cock and i was only about 11 then but had seen enough and done enough to know how to do it , and for some reason it got hard as i played and started doing a proper wank on it up and down and twisting it in my hand and i was doing all the ball playing nipple stroking arse hole probing as carefully looking at the door and i knew he had come out of their bedroom and gone to toilet just after me, then i saw him stood back watching as i wanked, so i rolled over still cock in hand and on my knees fucked my hole with my fingers, and as i was he walked in and very quietly said what are you doing and i said sorry i thought i was in private, please dont tell , he said i am shocked so i said can we go down stairs and talk he said yes and when we got there he said i am shocked that you was doing that and i said would you be more shocked if i said i was thinking of you as i was ,or would you like that, he said shocked and like it, so i said well your son does not do that but i do and if you want to you can, he said no , but i said ok then you caught me so tell me what you thought as i saw you watch as i played with it thinking if you liked it and you watched for over 10 mins , and then sat next to him on the settee and pulled it out and played in seconds he had grabbed my hand and guided it to his hard cock and i was right he was the same as he had what he wanted and i said nothing, after that just to know what arsehole grown men were i checked out so many , some really important people, some club members, some police,, some teachers,,, some from church, after a bit it stopped amazing me how many men were fucking boys and girls ,so many were, so many , it happened in school, and at army cadets and at more than one friends house, and a police car once, and lots in the bushes at the park, so i did as told and no questions , just what he said and got used to it he spanked and fucked that arse lots but , as it didnt bother me that much i made sure that i checked out all the perves around and got them all to fuck me, and they did, and that was what happened, i didnt care it was shit, and things only count if you let them get to your emotions i never did
