I always had a vision of how my first time would be. Some romance, a lot of foreplay with a man who truly loved me.
That's not how it went at all.
My boyfriend and I have been together for 6 months. He has wanted sex since the first week but said he respected my decision to wait. When I spend the weekend with him at his place it's usually hard to cuddle while sleeping cuz he seems to always be hard.
Last weekend we were drinking and I had one to many and while laying in bed attempting to go to sleep his hands started roaming. Before I knew it we were both naked and he was fingering me. He positioned himself between my legs and started sliding in. I kept telling him to wait but he kept pushing more and more in.
I felt pain and I cried out and he tells me good girl. He starts fucking me faster. There was no excitement for me at all. This is not how I wanted to loose my virginity.