This is more about my feelings after my wife confessed to something she did Friday night.

She and her friend Lisa went to a friend of Lisa's house to visit him. Lisa is married and
the friend, Paul is single.
Paul said a bunch of people were coming over - but it only ended up being the 3 of them.
Our teenage daughter was having several friends over here at our house, and since they
just started to experiment wih drinking alcohol, I volunteered to stay home to chaperone.

So, my wife, Lisa, and Paul were hanging out, and having a lot to drink.
I have met Paul before - and I think he is an A$$ honestly. Just very loud and
very full of himself.

As the night wore on, I guess the talk became more and more sex related. And then
it turned to penis size, and of course Paul said he has been told that he is the
biggest from several women he has had sex with.

I guess everyone was just drunk enough for my wife and Lisa to tell him to prove it.
And he did. He just unzipped and took it out right there in front of them.
My wife said things got real quiet then, they knew they crossed a line - but there
he was...semi-hard...and BIG.
Lisa was the first to ask to touch it - which end up being stroking it. So my took
a turn and did the same.
At one point Paul said they since they started it, they may as well finish it.
Again, Lisa went first to kneel down and take him into her mouth. And then my
wife did the same.
And they ended up giving him a blowjob together.
I sometimes wonder what Paul must have been thinking standing there while two
married women worked on his cock.

My wife has never had a problem "swallowing" , so she ended up taking about 80%
of his cum. Lisa took the last drops until Paul was completely spent.

My wife said as soon as it was over, she knew it was a mistake and felt awful.
She said she felt literally sick to her stomach - not from Paul's cum - but for
the guilt in what she just did.

So, the next morning, she confessed and could not stop crying.
Needless to say I was pissed.

But now I find myself thinking more and more about Paul. He is going to have
such a smug attitude the next time we see him at a bar or something. The whole
"your wife sucked my cock and you are clueless". I just KNOW that is what
he will be thinking.

I am trying to talk myself into how it was somehow less than being cheated on -
since it was oral sex only, and it was not one-on-one sex.

But I cant deny that it is kind of exciting thinking about my wife sucking on
such a big cock. I would love to see that.
I can't stand Paul - but now I am almost obsessed with seeing my wife give him
a blowjob (and more!)

Not sure how I can still be upset with my wife for what she did, but then tell
her I want her to do it again with me there.
Not sure how to let Paul have his secret attitudee with me that I know he will
have now, but then tell him that I know what happened and I want it to happen
again.

My wife is tiny - so I cant stop thinking about his size fitting inside her.
How do I tell either of them THAT??

I cant stand Paul....I wish it was anyone else but him - but I am starting to
think that I want him to have my wife. Why????

Maybe these feeling are just my way of dealing with what happened Friday night...