I feel like I'm living a double life. I'm fit, in pretty good shape and run just about every day shirtless with no worries about my physique. I make good money, or at least above decent enough to have my own place in a hot city. Girls literally throw themselves at me, and I'm not kidding. I've fucked way above what I should be able to get and have been able to since college. But it doesn't matter because secretly, at night after the club girls and gym girls and waitresses have left my apartment, I jerk off for hours to fat girls. Those eyes, those round faces, the huge ass and tits. I check them out in public but I'm not brave enough to have one in real life. It's stupid and immature but I can't help it.

Chubby and fat blondes are my favorite. And I know that's because back in college I had a real relationship with this fat blonde girl Maggie in one of the sororities and I was too chicken shit to be proud of her and tell folks she was my girl. She was the best fuck I've ever had, the only person I ever wanted to be my real self with, and I fucked it up to make sure my brothers in the fraternity would still respect me. You can't be fucking fatties and still be considered a bro. Of course now she's married, so that's not even a possibility.

Well my brothers aren't here and neither is she, so guess who gets to be alone? This guy. Fuck. This is not a fantasy, just a sad situation that I regret every day. Folks, be with that girl so you don't end up like me.