People wonder why it is that married men turn to sucking dick. There are probably many reasons, some real, some imagined, but in my case, it was a combination of things: a sexless marriage that hadn't any romance or passion left in it, and a desire to please someone, anyone sexually. My first time was about fifteen years into our marriage. We hadn't made love in years; she had lost her libido, and min was stuck in overdrive. I had been masturbating, often to internet porn, to take up the slack. The more I did, the more I wanted to have sex again. Trying to find a similarly situated woman on the internet is like trying to find a needle in a haystack. The internet hookup sites were either filled with hookers or required pay, something that I could not do, because using my credit card would have given me away, and I'm too fucking old to figure out what PayPal is. But while real women were a rarity, horny married men looking for anonymous blow jobs were not. In fact, the internet hookup sites were filled with them, many of them living here in our Mid-Michigan town. And nothing was left to the imagination. Most of the ads included closeup photos of their cock and balls, and included the things they wanted sexually, which, typically was to give them what their wives denied them: blowjobs.

I found myself focusing more on the dicks than the pussies in watching internet porn, more on the dicks than the female mouths which encased them. I began watching cuckold videos where the husband was forced to either eat the cum the lover had just deposited in his wife's pussy or asshole, or suck the lover's dick outright. After a while, I began answering ads, and soon, I found myself sucking off total strangers, in the comfort of their apartments, homes, garages, cars and even storage sheds. I was sucking all manner of dick: long ones, short ones, thick ones, skinny ones, straight ones, curved ones, white ones, brown ones, cut ones and uncut ones.

The act of fellatio, at least when a man is sucking off another man is an intricate dance of sorts. You meet the stranger, exchange brief pleasantries, sometimes no more than grunts. The other man unbuckles his jeans, unzips them, and pulls his typically flaccid or semi-hard cock out. I then, always being on the sucking end of these duets, will fall to my knees and then begin worshipping the cock in front of me. I typically start by brushing my lips against the head of his cock, kissing it, before wrapping my lips around it and sucking it, bobbing my head up and down as the once flaccid appendage before me, lengthens, becomes firm and fills my mouth. Practice has helped me with my gag reflex and I can usually deepthroat the cock, taking the head down into my gullet and keeping it buried there before coming up on the shaft of his cock, my tongue swirling round and round his cock head, and paying special attention to his frenulum, that ridge on the underside of his cock just below his cock head. I alternate the amount of sucking pressure on his cock, the speed at which I suck him, my tongue action, by listening carefully to the guttural sounds of approval he makes in the back of his throat. I enjoy his shoving his cock deep in my throat and holding the back of my head in place or fucking my mouth as if it were a pussy. I enjoy the leakage of his pre-cum, which often tastes so much better than the cum that fills my mouth when they finally cum, which is often more pungent and bitter than their precum. Sometimes I masturbate while sucking them, but usually save that for later, when I am alone and reliving the blowjob. Some guys like having me lick and suck their balls when I suck cock, while others aren't into it. It's easier to lick their balls if I am lying between their legs in the position that I used to eat my wife's pussy, back when we were still having sex. Sometimes, the guy will arch up as I am sucking their balls, providing me with access to their asshole. I've eaten many women's assholes, and an asshole is probably an asshole whether on a woman or a man, but I haven't been able to bring myself to eat a man's asshole. It just doesn't seem appealing to me. But, I'm not ruling it out in the future, as the idea of it is appealing to my sexually submissive side, and it is an ever present part of my masturbatory sexual fantasies, wherein I am always engaged in self-debasing sexual acts with women, and more and more with men.

So, you may be wondering, what the hell is it that I get out of these couplings. The other guy gets his rocks off, he gets the blowjob he wants and needs, the blowjob his wife doesn't deign give him anymore, if she ever did. Me, I get to suck dick, lick balls, have my head jammed up and down on a cock, have a cock shoved deep in my throat, have my mouth filled with pre-cum and cum, often tinged with the salty taste of piss, my tongue often a couple of inches away from a guy's half-wiped asshole. All I can say is that each cock offers a different challenge for me. I have a deep seated need to please. I would rather eat pussy than fuck it. I loved it as my wife squeezed my head entrapped between her powerful thighs, my tongue snaked deep inside her pussy, alternately lapping her nectar and flitting and sucking on her clitty until she would moan those words that rocked me world, "Don't stop, please don't stop. . ." With guys, I need to feel and consume their sexual release, hear them as they pant and groan, "I'm cumming, I'm cumming," before their creamy seed fills my mouth and slides across my tongue and down my throat. The act stokes the fires of my shame, which, in turn, provides me with ever more sexual satisfaction.

In a few hours, will meet a younger Hispanic male who I met on a hookup site some time ago and who I blew once, about 2 weeks ago. His dick is rather small, especially when flaccid, growing to its full length of about four inches as I suck him. The first time with him was brief. It took him about ten minutes of hard sucking before he exploded in my mouth. I've had guys who have cum after only a couple of minutes and one who I have sucked for over an hour continuously without ever getting him to cum. This guy's cum tastes awful, but I swallowed it anyway, as I wanted to live up to my role as his fellatrix, a role that is incomplete without having my mouth filled with my lover's cum, having me lick his dick clean, and kissing him on the cock head before exchanging goodbyes and leaving, the taste of his cum staying with me, even after gargling with mouthwash and brushing my teeth. The act will fill me with shame, and that shame will fuel my fantasies as I beat off later, reliving this latest blowjob, with the act embellished with me licking his feet, rimming his asshole and him fucking me, all acts that won't happen when we meet, although the possibility that they might is just another trigger for my lust. Fucked up, isn't it?