I have been to counseling for this. I am supposed to be repressing things. I was in Mexico with some friends for a wedding. At the after party I was stolen by this man and fucked in field and left there. I was found the next day by a utility crew and taken to a hospital. The hospital was one hundred times scarier than what happened to me. They inserted things in me getting evidence. I didn't care about any evidence. I am not from Mexico and I didn't appreciate these people digging in my vagina.

I am supposed to be sick because I don't have anger or any negative feelings. I just don't. I got fucked in a field, at least he fucked me good, I can still feel his dick in me. It is called a phantom dick, and that means I am supposed to be really sick in the head. I wish it was a real dick and not just my imagination.