I am a 35 year old married woman, married to a pastor of a large Baptist church in the South. We are very upstanding and proper.
Growing up, I was a little bit wild. I'm Latina and I was a cheerleader in high school. I didn't go too crazy in school, drank very little. Smoked marijuana twice. I was hardly sexually active as a teenager "Good girl". I let my boyfriend touch my breasts a few times and used my hand to satisfy him a few times. I gave him a blowjob once. Total.
I met my husband when I was nineteen and we got married while he was associate pastor before he got promoted to the position he now holds.
Our sex life has always been very polite. In the dark, me on my back with my legs spread. He never hurts me.
Over the years, I've gained some weight. Not too much, I'm just not a skinny teenager anymore. My breasts and butt have grown, I have a little more belly than I used to.
As I've gained weight, (I'm 5'5" 160lbs) his sexual interest in me has lessened.
Six weeks ago, my husband went out of town for a pastoral conference for the weekend. I got bored and made a terrible decision that probably ruined my life.
I got dressed up in a tight skirt and blouse and I went to a bar to try to relive my youth (that I never actually lived) and got a little, but not very, drunk. This bar was in a bad neighbourhood because I didn't want anyone to recognize me. It was in a poorer, black, area.
So, while drinking. I got interest from a guy and let him but me a couple drinks. After a couple hours of drinking and talking, he convinced me to go with him for some weed.
While driving to his friend's place, I was getting horny and started rubbing his crotch while he drove. I knew this was all so wrong.
When we arrived at his friend's, we went in and bought some weed. Started feeling uneasy because I was the only woman there and there were four guys, all big and black, there.
I wanted to leave but was told I had to pay up for the drinks and weed. They didn't want money. I said no. Suddenly. Everything went bad. The guy who I met at the bar stood behind me and started rubbing my breasts and then literally. Ripped my blouse off me. He held me still and one of them warned me to keep it quiet. I was so scared.
One guy started filming with a cellphone as I was forced to bend over the kitchen table, my skirt was lifted and my panties were pulled down. I was held down while the first guy brutally, and without warning, sodomized me. I had never had anal or felt so much pain before. He pounded into me and came in me. Then they all sodomized me, one after the other.
Then, after they had all done this, they threw me on the table on my back, and r**ed me vaginally. Each one used me more than once. Each one cumming in my pussy.
Then I was told to get on my knees and suck every dick there before I could leave. I did. They came in my mouth and made me swallow or they came on my face.
Afterwards, they found something I could wear and I was driven back to the bar where my car was. On the ride I was told, if I tell anyone, they have video of me sucking four black dicks.
The event was horrifying and super painful. What I'm confessing is, I came multiple times while being sodomized and r**ed. I have never had such strong orgasms. I am almost tempted to go back to that bar hoping it will all happen again.
I feel like I now need to be r**ed to get off.
I also might be pregnant with a black baby.