Have been reading these confessions since I've been 14 years old, and it truly fucked me up...

I'm a 19 year old mixed race guy from Cape Town South Africa...

Totally straight... Or so I thought, I've never done anything with a guy yet, but I can't stop thinking about dick and having a dick throbbing in my hand, at the back of my troat, making me gag.

Having a dick press against my lips and forcing me to foken choke on it.

Having a guy hold me down sucking his dick while he fingers my hole, and prepares my ass for that hard Cock.

Rubbing his dick head across my wet hole and giving me chills as he forces it inside me deep, fucking me till I can't take it anymore and am finally a Cock sucking fag.

I hate that I feel like this, but absolutely love it.

I can't wait for my first time, but am absolutely terrified of what may happen once I do it, will I be a Cock addict or will I hate it?

What's wrong with me, anybody?