Next door to us lived a Chiropractor. Middle aged man, in decent enough physical shape. He was quite and came and went and no one was the wiser. One day he asked me to help him empty some books from his house and donate them to the library. He had the boxes, he just needed me to help box up the books and carry them downstairs to his car.

We were boxing away. He was nice enough and asked all the appropriate questions, when was I going to graduate, what was I going to study, did I have a girlfriend, as I answered I kept putting the books in boxes. All of a sudden he says 'not those, I don't think the little old librarian is going to like that'. These were paperback novels, with suggestive titles, with good looking guys on the cover. I put them aside, and kept boxing until we were done.

While I waited for him to finish, look around to see if that was all I grabbed one of the paperback novels he had held back. The one I had in my hand was titled "The Schoolboy". He saw me and said that if I wanted I could borrow it and if I liked it, I could borrow some of the other ones. We took loaded the boxes in his car and went to the library to unload and when we got back he said thanks and I started to walk back home. Then 'Hey, you forgot your book'. He gave it to me and said 'these are special, very special, not everyone likes them, but if you do you can borrow the other ones to read'.

I had never masturbated. Reading the book had me in an erection, the vivid description of penises and penetration and boys sucking each other. I could just imagine myself being one of those schoolboys in the English boarding school. When I got to the part that Johnny confessed his love and Jack took him and penetrated him with is hot iron penis, I read that chapter over and over, jacking off with my hand until I came.

He gave me that book, and loaned me the others, one by one I read all about the young actor who was seduced by the stage manager, and about the college boy who found out that he was the love interest of his professor, and about the boy who would see the veterinary doctor. I fantasized about being any one of the characters, of the hand of the man working through my hair, of my penis exploding, of the feeling of having sex with the sailor back from duty. I could picture those penises, and I masturbated to the books, chapter by chapter.

The Chiropractor had other books to lend me, these were comic books of gay sex, large penis pictures, boys crying, I loved them, all of them. I got my first kiss one afternoon, he said he was happy that I liked them, he had liked them when he was growing up, he knew what those books meant, because he liked nice boys.

His penis was large to me, in my mouth it felt really large, we would look at a comic book and I would do what the boy in the comic book did, my first fuck was good, real good, I was so ready and he knew just how to do it. He was slow and hard at the same time, it just felt so good as his penis went into like a hot iron rod. He had lubricated me, something that the comic books didn't show or the books didn't talk about, but he knew to do. His penis just went in, and it felt really really good.

He had a Jacuzzi in his bathroom, and he would have me get naked and bathe in the Jacuzzi and when I got out he would kiss me, and either have me suck him or he would fuck me. I liked being naked.

It is impossible to say how many times he fucked me before I went to college. I was very experienced and I wanted to meet that professor from Chemistry class that tutored young men and they would suck his penis. I learned quickly that there were parties, off campus parties, where some of the football guys got together. I learned that I played catch and they were the pitchers. I played blind taste test, with my eyes blindfolded and sucking dick after dick to see if I could identify who was who.

It wasn't the Chemistry professor, it was the Sociology professor, and he was mean and he fucked you hard and he called you queer. I never took any of his classes, but I got fucked by him, and he would say 'swallow my cock bitch'. I didn't like the word cock, I preferred dick and I preferred the word queer to gay. College was fun and also the place where I grew up. By the time I got out of college I knew I was headed for New York and the Village.

I got a chance to work with an interior design firm and I went back for a masters degree and worked in Interior Design my whole career. My youth was misspent, I have managed to collect a good number of paperbacks of the era, which I still read and give me great pleasure and I have been known to masturbate even today. Our neighbor the Chiropractor passed away many years ago and took his secret with him, leaving only those of us who walked across into a fantasy world with him to remember him.

Gay is gay, that is what I say. I see lots of young fellows, who look like I did back in the day. But I play catch, and they play catch and that is no way to play ball at all. I like the sailor or the longshoreman, or the cop, or building superintendent who likes go give the boys what for. That is what I like, if they can pitch, I can catch, that's what I tell them.