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Gay Confessions
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Gay Male / 48
I was married at the age of 22. I had always wanted a family and had 2 boys from my marriage. My sex life was very intermittent most of the time during my marriage and totally stopped when I was 39. My wife moved out of the bedroom and I found myself looking back at my life and realized that the best times were when I was a teen/college age and was playing around with the other guys I knew.
I found the new fad of the time – the internet. I got onto AOL messenger and found the gay sites and did a lot of talking and masturbating late at night. After many years, I found a man tha was near me and we started to talk. As we did we became friends and decided to meet. He had told me a lot about himself as I had to him. As I was driving to meet this new friend, I started to think about our conversations and had a very weird feeling about this hook-up. As I got there we looked at each other and instantly we both knew that we had met before. Actually he was the first boss I had when I started working. We went to his house, talked a long time and then wound up in bed masturbating and sucking each other. Bruce and I started to meet regularly and I realized what I had been missing, that being a relationship with another man. I intellectually knew, even as a young teen that I was physically attracted to other guys, but in those days being "queer" was not very acceptable in society nor in the teaching profession.
A year or so later, Bruce took a vacation. He asked me to monitor his AOL account which I did. One night I got a message from this guy he had been talking to. I told him I wasn't Bruce and he accused me of hacking his account. I explained the situation and he realized that I was given permission to use this account. We began talking. I gave him my name and we began to talk nightly. He was a kid (24 years younger than me) aged 23. We both began to discuss a lot of things, jacked off of course on line and had a very good time. When Bruce returned from his trip, he was in a cast from hip to toe due to an injury he had in Amsterdam. I talked to him about Joel and he asked me to come to his place to come to his place for lunch one day.
As I entered his house, there was this gorgeous young boy sitting talking to him. It was Joel and at first site I knew I wanted to be with him. We talked for a couple hours then moved to the bedroom. The three of us started to fool around, playing with each other, sucking each other and generally doing what guys do to have fun. Somewhere in the middle, it became me and Joel making out, playing with each other's dicks and sucking each other to conclusion. Bruce unfortunately was left out (like in many 3 way situations) but did watch an enjoy the show.
As we sat together afterwards, we all were talking and I asked Joel if we could see each other again and he said yes. I was honest saying I wanted to be with him, but he looked at me, telling me that he couldn't be that person that was just a fuck and since I was married, he didn't see this going anywhere. This was June 15th. On June 16th I contacted a lawyer and began divorce proceedings. My wife already knew I was gay and we talked about staying together for the boys, but I couldn't put them through it. To me, and actually to my ex-wife, the divorce was something that was just a matter of time.
Joel and I began to see each other regularly. Usually I rented a motel room and we had an evening together. Yes, I was still married, but in a sexless unloving relationship. I started to fall in love with this boy but with the age difference wasn't sure exactly where it would go, or if it would go anywhere.
In November I got a place of my own as the divorce was being processed. On December 7th of that same year, I picked up Joel at the airport (he was a flight attendant) and took him back to my condo and began living together. Even though previous to this we had met and had sex numerous times, Joel said that until the divorce was finalized we would not sleep together or have any more sex. To say that was frustrating is an understatement, but I knew that those were the conditions and agreed with him.
That was 10 years ago, as of this writing in 2018, and Joel and I have been married for many of those, both with a wedding in Hawaii, unfortunately after they had repealed the gay marriage act, again on a cruise ship, then a domestic partnership when it became legal in our state and then finally when our state approved gay marriage, got married. I know there wasn't a lot of sexual details in this account, but we have had a loving relationship throughout our time together.
For all of you that don't have hope in finding your soul-mate and lover, take it from me that it happens at the moment you least expect it. Hang in there and find the man of your dreams and enjoy your lives together.
I found the new fad of the time – the internet. I got onto AOL messenger and found the gay sites and did a lot of talking and masturbating late at night. After many years, I found a man tha was near me and we started to talk. As we did we became friends and decided to meet. He had told me a lot about himself as I had to him. As I was driving to meet this new friend, I started to think about our conversations and had a very weird feeling about this hook-up. As I got there we looked at each other and instantly we both knew that we had met before. Actually he was the first boss I had when I started working. We went to his house, talked a long time and then wound up in bed masturbating and sucking each other. Bruce and I started to meet regularly and I realized what I had been missing, that being a relationship with another man. I intellectually knew, even as a young teen that I was physically attracted to other guys, but in those days being "queer" was not very acceptable in society nor in the teaching profession.
A year or so later, Bruce took a vacation. He asked me to monitor his AOL account which I did. One night I got a message from this guy he had been talking to. I told him I wasn't Bruce and he accused me of hacking his account. I explained the situation and he realized that I was given permission to use this account. We began talking. I gave him my name and we began to talk nightly. He was a kid (24 years younger than me) aged 23. We both began to discuss a lot of things, jacked off of course on line and had a very good time. When Bruce returned from his trip, he was in a cast from hip to toe due to an injury he had in Amsterdam. I talked to him about Joel and he asked me to come to his place to come to his place for lunch one day.
As I entered his house, there was this gorgeous young boy sitting talking to him. It was Joel and at first site I knew I wanted to be with him. We talked for a couple hours then moved to the bedroom. The three of us started to fool around, playing with each other, sucking each other and generally doing what guys do to have fun. Somewhere in the middle, it became me and Joel making out, playing with each other's dicks and sucking each other to conclusion. Bruce unfortunately was left out (like in many 3 way situations) but did watch an enjoy the show.
As we sat together afterwards, we all were talking and I asked Joel if we could see each other again and he said yes. I was honest saying I wanted to be with him, but he looked at me, telling me that he couldn't be that person that was just a fuck and since I was married, he didn't see this going anywhere. This was June 15th. On June 16th I contacted a lawyer and began divorce proceedings. My wife already knew I was gay and we talked about staying together for the boys, but I couldn't put them through it. To me, and actually to my ex-wife, the divorce was something that was just a matter of time.
Joel and I began to see each other regularly. Usually I rented a motel room and we had an evening together. Yes, I was still married, but in a sexless unloving relationship. I started to fall in love with this boy but with the age difference wasn't sure exactly where it would go, or if it would go anywhere.
In November I got a place of my own as the divorce was being processed. On December 7th of that same year, I picked up Joel at the airport (he was a flight attendant) and took him back to my condo and began living together. Even though previous to this we had met and had sex numerous times, Joel said that until the divorce was finalized we would not sleep together or have any more sex. To say that was frustrating is an understatement, but I knew that those were the conditions and agreed with him.
That was 10 years ago, as of this writing in 2018, and Joel and I have been married for many of those, both with a wedding in Hawaii, unfortunately after they had repealed the gay marriage act, again on a cruise ship, then a domestic partnership when it became legal in our state and then finally when our state approved gay marriage, got married. I know there wasn't a lot of sexual details in this account, but we have had a loving relationship throughout our time together.
For all of you that don't have hope in finding your soul-mate and lover, take it from me that it happens at the moment you least expect it. Hang in there and find the man of your dreams and enjoy your lives together.
