I am a college freshman and I giving oral sex to my Economics professor. Honestly, I feel like shit for it. I was raised better then this and even worse I am sure he is married which leaves me feeling like a whore. I am from a poor first generation immigrant family and they have sacrificed everything to get their only daughter into college and I can't let them down.

I tried everything to pass, but i was not even close. I kept trying to get help and just before the break i went to his office in near tears and he asked to meet me off campus, long story short I gave him head in his car while he groped me all over and he promised my grade would go up. It is the first week back, and i just finished now doing it again and i feel so dirty. He had his finger inside me while i did it this time but it is not like i was turned on at all. He is fat and much older even then my dad.

I don't know how often i have to do this but i checked my grades on the class website and i went from a D to an A. Don't get me wrong. I am not doing this against my will, i know what I am doing. I am no pure virgin type but i am better than this. I am just disgusted in the choices i am making. But the semester is almost over so i'll keep going.