so I am a girl who liked boys and dicks, so I had to learn this some how back of the shed and in the cow shed touching up nice places on older boys and them doing that to me, so what, it felt good at the time but not as I got older shame and guilt set in. my mother used to baby sit boys and sometimes they would come and play with me and touch me and I would get horny and at the same time I was being m****ted by a few older boys and girls and also by local men. I didn't want to look like the "cry wolf" girl so said nothing. but what ever I did wrong god knows and I know and its that that bad as was done to me, I just rubbed pussy up against a kids body during a afternoon nap that we often had together and I think yeh what I did was bad and I was just doing as a game the others did to me. but god knows why I did it and that is all that matters. I've been told I am not to blame because I was only copying older kids and men and sexually interested in other boys myself and I just rubbed my pussy on his parts while we napped after lunch. I wasn't sure if he was asleep or not often he would cuddle with me and we would read books and watch tv and eat together and play games and I would feed him and bath him and I didn't ever harm him or physically hurt him and it was just a once time rub up with hardly any clothes on in summer, that morning we had played in the rubber mini kids pool together and were just about naked and talking about body parts and I was thinking of the games the older kids did to me and thought it was normal and just did them because I was only 5 and he was only 3. I never meant him harm. I liked him and his brother a lot. I had heaps of sexual little boy experiences and people calling boys my boyfriend as a child. I did do some sexual games with some of them and their brothers that were not that bad just hide and touch and seek-out touchy places games with our eyes closed games, doctors and nurses sexual touch games, paddy-wack sexy games in a truth or dare game where we had to dare and one was to bare bum wack a boys bum with a leaf branch, and also skinny dips, and sexy dance that my older cousins had done to me. looking through books and drawing vulgar pictures and words games and where's my tities my aunty used to do with her own child. I feel so bad now, but I was just a huge copycat then at 5.