So I've confessed on here already about me and my cousin having a real, secret relationship with all of the ordinary intimacy any relationship would have but....

I just want to confess that yes, I'm still attracted to her and love her, i think the fact that we had to keep us quiet ended up fading our relationship but I'd love to have her back,

I got to thinking and dreaming just now about how amazingly incredible it would have been to have got her pregnant.

It sounds not right to most, but it just sounds perfect to me. Like, yeah, I wanted a family with her well if not just a life together.

Idk why getting her pregnant makes me feel so good or feels so right, I mean obviously we had a relationship that lasted a few years but being that this feels right, it must mean something...

I just wished I would have not pulled out a few of those times. It really makes me regretful.

Yes, I admit I love her so much!
I miss her a lot too, sometimes I think id like to try again but I'm nervous about how. Its been 2 years broken up.

If, if!!! We get back together I'm going to just go for it and just let it happen. Whatever happenes, does. Its fate right?

I'd feel so, complete in a way.