I remember the day we met our eyes locked on and didn't let go, and the last day we made love and for 11 years you had my heart.


I looked up to you so much and you were my reason for anything and everything .
we shared so much and been through so much more that I swore nothing could take us apart.

I remember I looked into your eyes and vowed to never leave and to protect you and I was going to be there till the day I died, and you said the same. I remember telling you that your existence was my happiness, and at night we would lay in bed and Id tremble at the thought that one day you had to die, youd rock me to sleep.
I believed you when you told me you would never leave, and as much as I was worth I loved you even more for that.

one day things changed and things didn't seem right.
Id ask you whats wrong and you told me you just didn't feel right.
As time went on things with you became more obvious, and you began to push me away and I knew this kind of pain.
I didn't want to believe this was happening and I tried so hard to believe it was me just overthinking , so I tried even harder to love you and to do everything you wanted but you told me I was over emotional when I would tell you just how much you meant to me, you told me I was clingy for spilling my heart out and I did just because I knew soon something bad was going to happen and I thought with love, I could have stopped it.


On what seemed like a normal day after work you called and asked me to leave so your friend could stay.
You asked me to leave our home, we were never apart at night, wed go to bed together every night, we were always connected somehow till recent when you started having those late nights at work and you would never text me good morning like we used to do every morning, till then we were always together so this caught me off guard.

Then it happened, like shattered glass and cold silence


You broke my heart the day that you left, you crushed me and destroyed me.
I tried to talk to you and to reason with you because somehow I couldn't understand how you could want this... but in the end you simply replied like you would any distant friend " just enjoy your day1" as I got no return to " I love you "

I'm sitting
here trying to accept that this is really the end.
Not only the end of us but the end to the old me.

This hit me so hard that I'm desperate to get rid of the person who you loved, and who loved you so the pain can go away. I almost fell into drinking the pain away but being there once before I knew that wasn't the way to do this.

thanks to you I have to destroy my old self, being here I have to find my own grounds.
but forever your scar will be the blueprints to my future.

how can I forget you....... please..... how can I forget you.