I am back. i think about it more and could do it if i was pretty high. sex to me is way better when high, and i am more likely to be passive and willing then.
It would be much better to passionately let him put it in your mouth and suck it until he completes his orgasm. Let him know how much you enjoyed it by swallowing it and leaving him in your mouth until he is soft.
I was 19 , and sent to jail/prison which was mostly black, and was white tall skinny blonde hair blue eyed male. I had the same experience and was immediately gang ass raped. The initiation was horrible, and then I went into pc where I healed. Later I was transferred into general population, where within hours I had a makeshift shank on my throat and he demanded ass. Need less to say, I told him to put the shank down and reluctantly submitted, and it slid right in, since it had been forcibly sized earlier. I can only guess my ass recieved way more than 125 dicks, all black. I also became passive and also enjoy weed and am better when high also. I have similar thoughts now also.