I can't explain or undestand how I, a balding, heavy set and not very handsome man of 69 years old, can completely be trusted by a 28 year old devorcee who is beautiful. I have know Rachael for more than 2 years since we live in the same condo development. By coinsidence the first twelve or more months we both ate at the same diner and began eating together 2 or 3 nights a week. Our conversations at first were just cordial but after we really got to know each other a lot of personal things were discussed. We talked about our families, friends, spouses, jobs and even our sex lives. By the end of last year I knew more about her than some of my close friends and she also knew way to much about me. The fact I was unsuccessfully married twice, that I retired at 62 because I was going to get fired and the worst was telling her how I had a prostate operation in 2015 which left me impotent. Now if any women are reading this is the fact I am unable to get a full erection mean I can be trusted more or that means I supposedly have no sexual interest anymore. This is what I can't understand so I'd like to hear if this is somehow a reason I could be just some old guy who is harmless. Knowing all about my life whether good or bad stuff will that make me more trustworthy or honest to women??? Well in Rachael's case it must be because for the last 10 1/2 months she has given me new life and more that I could ever expect at my age. It happened in a funny way while we we at the diner and that day she found out her devorce was final. She began again talking about her x husband telling me again how he had 2 girlfriends during their 2 year marrage. Then she began telling me things I hadn't heard before how he sometimes would insist on rough sex and how she hated it when he has anal sex with her. She also said he insisted on her jerking him off and giving him blow jobs ejaculating in her mouth. Rachael then told me when she found out about the other girls she also had an affair with a guy she worked with. Then the kicker came when she ended up saying that the only thing she missed was when her husband gave her rub downs. She said how good he was at it because he was a physical therapist and how he would get her aroused. By the time she was done telling me all of this I was speechless and now full with to much information. We just sat there for a minute or two and to break the ice I kiddingly said to her that I was good at giving rub downs if thats her only problem, and we both laughed a little. Not a minute later she said "I might take you up on that".


Two nights later I was in the diner when in walks Racheal and sits down with me. I already ate so she ordered a salad and the first thing she said was asking if I really was good at rub downs. I really wasn't and far from a professional but didn't want her to know that so I just said that she could tell me how she likes it done. There was no joking and it became apparent to me that she was serious about it (maybe). Now if you saw me standing next to her, anyone with a clear mind would say, whats that pretty girl doing with that old fart. Then I began thinking she was just messing around with me to get a reaction. There simply is no way in the world this gorgeous woman would let me touch her body. Her salad came and she began eating it and I sat there wondering what to say to her. She looked up at me and said "how about tomarrow night" stupid me said what? and she just said "a rub down". I think I blushed and forced down a sip of my coffee still not beleiving she was serious. With the most macho voice I could muster I think I said no problem. Her reply was "my place 8:30 alright" and I said "alright" not knowing what else to say. The next day was a Wednesday and I was a bag of nerves all day wondering what I was in for or what I expected and certainly not confident things would go well. I left my unit at 8:25 walking to her unit which is only about 70 yds. away but seemed like a mile. She opened the door letting me in and poured us a glass of wine. I was waiting for her to say forget it but after a few minutes she just said she was going to change. She went into her bedroom and a few minutes later came out with a leather mat wearing only a white towel that barely covered her breasts down to her upper thighs. I think I almost fainted as she place the mat on her dining table exposing the crack of her butt. She turned to me saying ready and laid down on the table face down. As I walked over to her she handed me a plastic bottle that had an Asian symbol on it but said massage oil. She told me to start at her shouders and the best was yet to come. Like a dope I asked if she just wanted her shoulders and legs rubbed but she smiled and asked me if its ok to take off the towel and all I could do is nod my head. There she was face down naked and she is the one telling me not to be shy. I rubbed her down the best I knew how and a few times she would only say harder. When she turned over the first thing I noticed was her bald vagina and I could feel myself sort of getting an erection which in my case is only half an erection. I put more of the oil on her and started at her shoulders and neck and without thinking about it began rubbing her breasts which are not real big but firm and a perfect size as far as I'm concerened. She only had to say don't be shy one time because now I just began enjoying every minute of looking at her body and especially touching her everywhere and cupping her vagina in my right hand and rubbing in between her thighs. It was the most exciting night I had in years and when I went back to my unit I actually tried to masturbate with no sucsess.

Since that night we continue to eat at the diner together often and on average I give her rubdowns between 3 and as many as 6 nights every month. I think it was the first week last December when I was so involved in touching her body I somehow took the liberty to insert two of my fingers in her. As soon as I did it I took them out but she grabbed my arm and said it was ok. From then on when ever I give her a rub down I also masturbate her and I love watching her when she orgasms. Often she will have 2 or 3 the same night and I love it most when I stand in between her legs fingering her. I also rub the oil on her anus but she has said a few times she don't like being penetrated there. I've been doing this for a long time and she knows I like standing between her legs and I alwaays rub inside her thighs and over her vagina and can tell when she is aroused. Thats when I begin fingering her standing there with a half erection. When we eat at the diner we hardly ever talk about the rubdown sessions but last Spring one night she ask me if I got enjoyment out of it. She was well aware that I am impotent but for the first time I admitted to her that I was still able to be aroused but that nothing worked right. With that she asked what I meant so I told her how I often tried to masturbate, and that I could only get a very slight erection and unable to ejaculate. The very next time I gave her the rubdown she began asking me more about it. I tried to explain it the best I could and she just told me she felt sorry for me. She was face down as we talked and when she turned over she sat up and asked to see my penis. With the shape of my body I don't even like seeing me naked so I told her I was to embarrassed. She just laughed saying something like here she was naked and I'm afaid to show her my dick. I finally got the courage and undid my pants pulling down my underware with half a hard on. Before I knew it she put some of the massage oil on her hand and began trying to jerk me off. I admit it felt good but unfortunatley it didn't get bigger or harded and when I did cum it was only a drop. All she did was ask if it felt good and the only thing that came to my mind was thank you. So now since Spring when I rub her down and masturbate her I don't have pants or underware on and she does keep trying to jerk me off but its always the same. I do appreciate her doing it but wish I could get a full hard on and cum normally. Rachael is a doll and has made my life much more exciting. She does date a guy who I met once but when she wants a rub down she always tells me so. As long as this has been going on I still can't comprehend why she treats me the way she does. I just don't get it because there are plenty of guys around that could do anything for her and I'm sure if she asked any guy to give her a massage they would jump at the chance. I met her parents a few months ago and I am much older then them and her mother thanked me for being so nice to her daughter. If they ever knew what was going on I'm sure they would try to kill me. I never told any of my friends about this first of all because they would never believe me. I still cant believe it sometimes and tried looking it up on the computer for a reason she would pick a decrepit old man like me. If anyone knows let me know.