Bi-Sexual Male / 50
So, I've always been an ugly duckling. A little too tall, a little too skinny. To boot, I have a disability that makes my joints deformed.
When I was a child, I caught on quickly I was an 'undersirable'. When my hormones raged as a teenager, I couldn't find any girl to be with me. I made friends easy and ran around in the usual clicks, but I was always the one left out for sex, affection, intimacy, etc.
When I was 16, I had moved out, quit school and worked to support myself. There was a guy in my apartment building who I talked to one day and I got the idea he was hitting on me. That was a new one as no female had ever done that.
Basically that day I surrendered. I let the much older guy jack me off and I came huge. I have an above average dick, but well below average looks.
Since then, I have hooked up with literally hundreds of men and a few females all mostly from craigslist. I let the men jack me off or I jack off for them and sometimes I will suck their dicks.
It's almost always one offs and we will play and then never see them again.
I've never really had a gf even though I've fucked a few. The heartbreaking thing is that I'm really only attracted to females and have craved my whole life to be loved by a kind of pretty one. Instead, I'm left resorting to sexual contact with men.
Don't get me wrong, I often have amazing dirty interludes with men, but deep down, I'm really resentful of not being wanted by girls and having to resort to sex with dirty old men.
Comments welcome.
When I was a child, I caught on quickly I was an 'undersirable'. When my hormones raged as a teenager, I couldn't find any girl to be with me. I made friends easy and ran around in the usual clicks, but I was always the one left out for sex, affection, intimacy, etc.
When I was 16, I had moved out, quit school and worked to support myself. There was a guy in my apartment building who I talked to one day and I got the idea he was hitting on me. That was a new one as no female had ever done that.
Basically that day I surrendered. I let the much older guy jack me off and I came huge. I have an above average dick, but well below average looks.
Since then, I have hooked up with literally hundreds of men and a few females all mostly from craigslist. I let the men jack me off or I jack off for them and sometimes I will suck their dicks.
It's almost always one offs and we will play and then never see them again.
I've never really had a gf even though I've fucked a few. The heartbreaking thing is that I'm really only attracted to females and have craved my whole life to be loved by a kind of pretty one. Instead, I'm left resorting to sexual contact with men.
Don't get me wrong, I often have amazing dirty interludes with men, but deep down, I'm really resentful of not being wanted by girls and having to resort to sex with dirty old men.
Comments welcome.
