I joined a regional ballet company. On the road, to save money, we were paired up two to a room. I got paired up with Helen. Helen is a girl from a very well to do family, she went to private schools and a private college and she was (is) quite spoiled. I came from a more humble background, I went to public schools and went to a state college. Helen was also a much better dancer than me. She would always be first string and I would always be second string. But still we were paired together.

One evening, after dinner, we were getting ready for bed, and I just thought out loud. I said to her, "Helen I would like you to come and sleep with me". She responded that she didn't think that was appropriate, I agreed with her and I told her it wasn't appropriate, but I wanted her to sleep with me.

Well, after she finished her night time routines, she turned off the light and came over to my bed and got in bed with me. I put my arms around her and she asked me if I was going to kiss her and stuff, and I told her I was going to kiss her and I wanted to do stuff with her. When I kissed her she kissed back, and she told me that was her first kiss.

I helped her get out of her nightgown, and I got out of mine, until we were both completely naked, and I ran my hands up and down her body, across her breasts, and in between her legs. I asked her if she liked it and she said yes. I asked her to run her hands up and down my body and to touch me between my legs.

I asked her if she had ever been naked like that before and she said no. She never had, this was the first time she was kissed and fondled. I asked her if she minded if I went down on her, if she would open her legs for me and let me kiss her down there. She said no, she got on her back and opened her legs and I put the pillow under her head, and went down on her. She was very receptive, but not cooperative. I asked her if she would do that to me, and she said no.

Our first night together was pretty much that. She let me hold her and touch her, I tried to caress her, but she just let me touch her. I asked her if she wanted to kiss me and she said no, but I could kiss her.

Helen and I continue to sleep together, she is receptive but she has a hard time reciprocating. She will allow herself to be kissed, to be touched, for me to go down on her, but she is not able to return the favor.

Helen is my first girl. I want to experience everything with her. I am labeling myself as bisexual, but my only experience with another girl is with Helen. What I want most is for her to just go crazy and do things with me and to me, I want to feel her going for me.