I confess that I am both amazed and bewildered by the fact that there are such great attempts to suppress any expressions of youthful sexual encounters. Why does American society, as a whole, deny that most peoples' first sexual experiences occur when they are pubescent, or even prepubescent?

Sexual curiosity is natural as children near puberty. And, right or wrong, many experience their first sexual encounter with a family member. Whether innocent probing, like playing doctor, or actual sexual contact such as masturbation or fondling, it was likely with a sibling, or a sibling of a close friend. I recall playing doctor with my little sister before I was even in my teens. I probed between her legs with a popsicle stick. She was inquisitive as well, wanting to see and touch my penis. We didn't have intercourse, but did fondle each other. I think the first time we engaged in such activity, I was too young to produce an actual ejaculation. We did have an encounter later where I performed crude oral sex on her, basically just licking her "pussy". She then masturbated me to what was to be my first ejaculative orgasm. Although she was somewhat grossed out that I had spurted gobs of sperm all over her, she was intrigued by the mechanics of how my penis went from flaccid to fully erect, then went flaccid again after ejaculating. And I very much enjoyed feeling her jerking with pleasure as I lapped her sweet vagina with my tongue.

Although she would never agree to let me have intercourse with her, we did occasionally provide each other with sexual stimulation. She even brought a couple of her young friends into play. They had confided to her that they had a crush on me. One of them had even told my sister that she would be my wife some day. My sister relayed that information to me. I told her to invite them over (each on separate occasions). My bed was in the basement, where my sister and her friends would listen to records and dance when I wasn't home, or was upstairs doing other things.

I told sis I would be in bed, feigning sleep and she could bring the friend downstairs to dance and then she could tell her friend she had something she wanted to show her. I would be naked under the sheet and while they were dancing, I would tense and relax my pelvic muscles, causing my erect penis to bob around. When her friend, Julia saw it, she said, "Oh my gosh! Look at his wiener bouncing around like that. He has to be awake." My sister assured her that I was sound asleep and then pulled back the sheets to expose my erection. She dared her friend to go ahead and touch it. I was wild with anticipation as she apprehensively reached out and touched my penis. Uncontrollably, it jerked and she jumped back. I acted as though I was just waking up and said, "Hey, Julia. What's going on?" Then I looked down at my erection and innocently said, Were you playing with my penis while I was asleep?" She said no, but my sister said yes, she was and reached over and started stroking me, assuring her friend that it was O.K.

I told Julia that I knew about her saying she wanted to be my wife someday. I told her I thought she was very pretty and that I would love to make her my wife. I then asked both the girls to take their clothes off and get into bed with me. Julia was reluctant, but when my sister started taking off her clothes and encouraged her to do the same, she did.

Again, I'd like to remind everyone that at this time, I was a couple of years away from being eighteen. My sister was four years younger than me and her friend was a year younger than her.

It took some coaxing, but after snuggling, kissing and fondling with her for a while, I persuaded Julia to let me put my penis inside of her. I positioned myself, put my arms under legs and told my sister to spit on her hand and sub it on the head of my penis. As I started to press against her never before explored vagina, she started to have reservations and asked me to stop. Being sixteen with a raging hard-on and two naked girls in bed with me, that was not an option. I pressed firmly and thrust my hips hard. She screamed as I tore into her. It was a good thing that our parents were both gone. She was so tight and I was so excited to actually be inside a girl, I probably didn't last more than ten minutes before I pumped wave after wave of sperm inside of her.

I ended up having sex with Julia repeatedly for a couple of years, but got wiser and stopped ejaculating inside of her. Fortunately, I never did get her pregnant.

I guess the bottom line is, before I ever reached the age of eighteen, I had sex with several girls varying in age from three to five years younger than me.

So, why are we never supposed to speak of these encounters?!