I have had two occasions to be alone with her and both times in her car and the first time she guided the conversation towards birth control for some odd reason. She went on to give me different views of how some categorize pulling out a form a birth control and I started to blush as she added how that way was messy unless you liked that kind of thing. I was nearly speechless and felt my heart pounding through my chest as I concentrated on not getting hard as this woman intimidated me like no other with her physical beauty as I truly was in full lust with her.
She is a true goddess to me and since the day she thanked me for "saving" her son.I have used her as my fantasy whenever jerking off. The second time we were alone and she was giving me a ride to the post office and after we passed an erotic adult book store she decided to change the subject to the variety of toys available to females as straight men were quite limited to masterbation products. Then she asked if I had ever been in there before and I mumbled no and then she volunteered some down right personal information about owning a vibrator purchased from the place.
I wanted to whip my cock out right then and splatter the windshield as she continued to give me her opinion on the benefits of pleasing one's self and how mutual masterbation between consenting adults is very popular but no one wants to admit to it.
My head was spinning as the seat belt was right between her tits and even though she wasn't making much sense I just smiled and nodded in agreement until we got back to our building. She invited to hang out until her son came home but I wanted to jerk off so bad I turned her down not realizing she might have wanted to tell me more about her vibrator. I ended up playing with myself three times before collapsing in exhaustion while the whole time wondering if I am just over thinking this or is she really coming on to me. I swear, I am so naive when it comes to what women want and her son asked me the other day if I wanted to spend the night sometime at their place. I told him it really wouldn't look good a nineteen year old having a sleepover with a fifteen year old. He said he already asked his mom and she didn't mind. I am not sure what to do with this and I do have a feeling my parents would think something wasn't right with that picture either. I haven't seen much of her lately except when she was outside with her asshole friend. She lit up when seeing me as he seemed disgusted with me more then usual. I wonder if he knows about the sleepover invitation yet? I guess I'd be pissed too if I was invited to spend the night there before he has been.


