I was seduced by a man when I was 15. He was 26 at the time and we both shared a few joints and a pint of bourbon. I went along with it but I know I was only a minor. Did I always have a desire to be with a man or did he just bring it out of me? I did grow up experimenting with wearing panties and crossdressing. Does that point towards me already being gay? The sex was awkward at first but I as soon as I told myself this is how girls feel I started liking it. I have trouble separating my feelings because if I was gay I missed the chance to enjoy and explore all the wonderful sexual feeling being with a man. Being seduced makes me question whether or not I would of enjoyed it on my own. So now I just roll with it and fall sexually in some sort of closet queer who is straight acting. Underneath all that I see myself desiring to be given extreme sissy training. Is feeding this making it more and more? Or is it filling the need I have to express myself? Wearing all silky bra,panties,garter w/stockings all fitting into my favorite french maid dress I finally feel at home. I feel at polar opposites but living straight is not for me. It's like I need this release to be a little sissy fuck toy. Can someone speak to this and reassure me that I am just gay and have always been this way? I hate to think being raped made me this way. My favorite porn is transsexual porn where the TS is really hung. My friends say I am bi and gay is incorrect. I guess I agree with that but for the type of relationship I want I can choice only one. Am I alone with these feelings. My girl dresses and strapon fucks me. She says I need to get it out of my system. It feels so good.
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