The embarassing moment here for me is the fact that I'm typing this, and that I'm turned on by it.

I am a total sissy. I used to think that I liked women, but after wearing pantyhose, high heels, nighties, and dresses for real men while I suck them and they fuck me silly, I realize that I'm a weak little crossdressing pansy faggot. I do not deserve my manhood, I should only take cum in my mouth and my ass, and I must never be allowed to reproduce. I want to be a helpless little pussy boy pleasure whore for the rest of my life.