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My grandmother insisted that I be named after her, Lucinda. I never liked that name and I went by Lucy. I got a degree in Marketing and got hired by a major department store and went through training and I was assigned to the women's clothing on the second floor. That afternoon a woman came in, I guessed her to be my age and she said that she needed a dress for a wedding. She wasn't a bridesmaid she was a guest, but it was her cousin and she needed a dress, something nice. She is not a slender woman, she is about five seven and once she was in her bra and underwear she was what I would call one solid girl. She needed a size twelve or maybe fourteen. Her boobs were boobs, her curves were curves, she had thick legs and strong arms. She told me that in college she played rugby and she was on a rowing team. It is not my place to dress clients but I dressed her, I put every dress on her and took every dress off of her. I told her that she needed to get a bra that fit her, something that would make her look more like a woman, not wear the bra she had on which may be good for rugby but not for the dress. We took her bra off and we tried on several bras until I found one that fit her and made her curves and cleavage show. I told her I loved cleavage on a woman, I loved a woman with curves, I help fit her into this dress that knocked her out, that moved when she moved, that made it clear that under that dress was a lioness. I told her that I wanted to be at the party when she walked in. I took her down to shoes and I helped find her a great pair of heels, I helped find a purse for her, I spent so much time with her, I told her that I would buy the clothes and shoes later with my employee card and take her the clothes. She bought the purse at retail and told me where she lived.

When I went to her place she lived alone. She invited me in, I asked her if she wanted to try on the dress again and she said she was quite comfortable right then, she was in shorts and barefoot and a top and no bra and she asked me to stay. I sat on the couch and she came and sat beside me and asked me lots of questions and then said just out of the blue if I wanted to be her date for the wedding. Her kiss was unexpected, not unwanted but unexpected, her hands went immediately to my chest and I had no choice but to put my arms around her neck. She took off her top and said she wanted to see and she worked with me to take off my top and she pressed her boobs against mine, no comparison except that my boobs are very sensitive. She told me she dreamed of me that night and I admitted I dreamt of her and she asked me if I wanted to go get on her bed.

After making love for about an hour we stopped and talked about things, still naked sitting on the bed. She is just curvy and her boobs are everywhere and her skin is so firm and tight, her leg muscles and her arms are just buff, she could break me in two if she wanted, I just fell back on the bed staring at her. The date went well, she helped me pick out a dress that would make us look good, shoes and a purse and we went to the wedding together. She introduced me to family as her date and she kissed me on the dance floor at the reception. We had fun together and we spent the night together and had more fun, and she confessed to me that she had never presented a date to her family before. I had been out to my family since high school, I was a thespian then and all thespians were either gay or lesbians, but she had been an athlete who kept her feelings to herself.

Going back to my high school days I always only had a crush on a girl in track or the soccer team. I never had a crush on the thespians or dancers or choir girls, I broke a couple of hearts. In college I had a crush on a girl who played tennis, but she had a crush on someone else. And now I had a crush on a sports girl who needed a dress and she had a crush on me. I can't help it I have always liked curves, with lots of muscle, strong legs and arms, and cleavage, I just like cleavage and now I found someone to like who had all that and more.

  • The short of it is that I acted on impulse and now I don't know what to do. And this isn't about being Out of the Closet, it is completely about being In the Closet. I have a roommate, I met her in college and we were friends and after college when we both got jobs for the same company we agreed to be roommates and get a bigger place. The apartment has two rooms and two bathrooms so we each have our space. That was five years ago. Our social life revolves around doing things together, in the five years we have been living together not once have we ever gone out alone.

    Now what happened is that my boss, who is not her boss, had tickets to see Celine Dion on Las Vegas. These were first class tickets but his wife had to have surgery and he couldn't make the dates so he generously offered the tickets to me, free. Getting over the uncomfortable part of accepting the tickets, I just couldn't take them and not go. The only person I wanted to go with is my roommate. I told her that this was something we had to do together and if for some reason she didn't want to go I would give back the tickets. This was an opportunity for a get away weekend, just the two of us to Las Vegas, catch a great show and just bum around together. She agreed and we bought our plane tickets and rented a room at a not so nice place and the weekend came up and we went.

    Our room had one queen size bed. No big deal, we had slept together many times over the years. We unpacked and we got dressed to go out and we got a ride to the strip and went from one hotel to the other looking for one that we liked. Neither one of us gambles so it was like window shopping. We were standing in line to catch a cab and this man behind us started to get personal and I turned to him and told him to back off couldn't he see we were together. He answered so your queer, figures. Our cab came I helped my roommate into the cab and we went to another casino. While we were walking the floor of the other casino, she took my hand and asked me to stop. We stood there and she asked me if we were queers. Not answering she asked me when was the last time I had sex with a guy, when was the last time I had even gone out with a guy, not since college and I didn't have sex with him. She said she didn't have sex with a guy, she never had. She took my hands and said we are in Las Vegas let's get married. This can be our wedding trip and honeymoon all rolled into one, let's go find one of those quickie marriage places and get married.

    We walked out of the hotel and she asked the concierge where we could go get married and he gave us a name and place and we stopped at this jewelry store in the hotel and we bought rings and she said we were going to do this, right then, we were getting married, she wasn't going back home single. We went to this marriage chapel, we got all the paperwork done, we waited for our turn and an hour later we were married in Las Vegas. We went to a Ruth Chris steak house and had dinner and we had a picture taken of us holding up our ring fingers. We kissed and we went back to our room to start our honeymoon. It was fast, it was everything, everything we had never done living together we did right then until we fell apart. She got up and stood at the foot of the bed and said that was the happiest day of her life, she was now a Mrs. and she was my Mrs. and I was her Mrs. and she wanted us to change her name to mine.

    The rest of the weekend, the Celine Dion show, the whole thing was a long crazy weekend, five years of holding it in came out and the bed was too big for us. We took hundreds of pictures, she bought me a diamond pendant and I bought her a diamond ring. We got our names tattooed. Three days in Las Vegas and when we flew back home we agreed to move into one room and that night we moved all our clothes together, we showered together and had sex on our bed at home. Then we woke up in the morning and got ready for work. We didn't tell anyone, we didn't go to HR, we didn't call our parents, we didn't tell anyone. She went quietly down to change her name, to register it at the Social Security, but we never told HR. Our lives on the outside were exactly the same as before we went to Las Vegas.

    We have been married a year now, we live together just like always, we work at the same company just like always, we haven't told our parents or families, we go out together with friends just like always. The only way you would know is that we sleep together at home and we have sex a couple of times a week. She baked a cake for our anniversary, we exchanged cheesy first year anniversary cards, we kissed over the cake and we agreed that being married is the best thing we have ever done. But it is a secret to everyone.

    Yes it is nobody's business, but we are married. This isn't like just agreeing to sleep together, we are legally married and all her legal papers have my name on them, her driver's license, her Social Security card, her Passport, her bank account, not to mention her tattoo and mine, not to mention the hundreds and hundreds of pictures we have together and of course we sleep in the same bed and we have sex, real sex. Now what? We have never come out to anyone, the only person who knows we are sexually active is our doctor, and we are in a secret marriage. So how do we have the big reveal?

    For a long time, going back over ten years, I have been wondering about cock sucking. To be truthful I started thinking about it when I was at a convention and I was with a dealers rep and somehow the conversation turned to sex and he told me that he had been sucking cock for a long time and he would rather suck cock than get laid. Whether he was telling me this to get me to suck cock or to let him suck cock I never found out. But the conversation never left my mind. The more I thought about it the more I became obsessed with the idea to the point that if I am sitting at an airport I look around and wonder what kind of cock the men there have, if I am in a men's room I peak and wonder, if I am driving I think about this guy or that guy and wonder what it would really be like to suck their cock. I just never got attracted to anyone, not enough to even hint at it.

    Our work is not gay friendly, most of the men are into hunting or golfing or poker. We sell heavy industrial equipment. We hired this man, he is in his fifties and he came recommended from a vendor to be the new supply chain manager. Six foot, heavy for his age, college athlete, played ball for one of the big ten teams. Articulate, well spoken, educated and he knew his business. I had a lot of problems with one of my lines and I spent some time with him working out the kinks in the supply chain, basically we had to change vendors. I got to thinking of him on the drive into work. I got to thinking of him during meetings. I didn't know he was gay.

    I asked him to lunch with one of our reps and he was very helpful. My rep later asked me if I thought he was gay. I was taken aback at the question, no he played ball in college. My rep said he was gay, he was the husband. Things changed after that, I had to deal with that and I worked hard to deny that to myself. One night we worked late and we went to this pizza place that he knew about and he was treated well by the staff. On the way out he put his arm around my shoulder. At the car he asked me if I wanted to get to know him better, maybe I would come over to his place and we could have some of that chocolate cake his mother had made.

    At his place we talked and he asked a lot of questions. I was standing, looking at his trophy case from high school and college and he got behind me and put his arm around my shoulder again and he said he liked me, maybe too much. He kissed me there, when I pulled back he said it was OK, but he kissed me again. He asked me if I had ever had a boyfriend, he kissed me again and said I really needed a boyfriend, he kissed me again and told me to come upstairs and he would be my boyfriend. He was in good shape for being 54 years old, with silver hair on his chest, his cock wasn't some out of this world cock, it wasn't any bigger than mine, he rubbed and played with my cock while we kissed and he put my hand on his cock, he leaned down and kissed and sucked my cock and asked me to help him out and I kissed and sucked his cock. He ground his cock up against mine, I was so hard, much harder than usual and he was hard too and he said a man has to be man and know what he likes and he liked me and he wanted to be my boyfriend.

    He likes to kiss and he kissed me over and over, kissed my cock and kissed my nipples and he had me kiss his cock and kiss his nipples and he asked me say out loud that I wanted him to be my boyfriend, to put my arms around his neck and hold him tight while he kissed me, to kiss him back while he put his hand lower under my cock and asked me if I was ready because he really wanted to show me that he liked me. He told me he was clean and he presumed I was clean but if I wasn't I should speak up, no herpes, no VD, no AIDS? Because when a man likes a man he wants to be with a man without anything artificial between them. No, nothing, well then he used his finger to work on me and then he got on and slowly penetrated until he said that was all he didn't have more to give and he got into a rhythm and before I knew it I was holding him while he gave me his last drops.

    He is the husband, we get together socially, I spend weekend nights at his place, I think about him while I am driving to work but now I think about our last time together, I do like kissing his cock and I think about that rep that preferred to suck than get laid and I can't agree with him, I love getting laid. It isn't only about sex, there are lots of fun times, with his friends mostly and we got to social functions, but it is about sex, by the time we have been out for a while I ask him if there is any of that chocolate cake of his mothers and that is our queue to go back to his place and have sex. That in a nut shell is how I ended up with a gay boyfriend.

  • I am a crossdresser and proud to be one also on hormone therapy male to female I love having sex with men I love sucking cock and having my ass stretched to its limits I have more orgasms then I ever did before I have found married men are the best they last longer and cum more I am so glad I have become a feminine crossdresser I am with two married men now on a regular basis and they are ok with it I am a no condom girl and my men love it

    I my twenties I would get high on pot and go to gay bars in Ft Lauderdale to tease gay men. I have a feminine side and would wear nylon panties, nylon short shorts size extra small to show my cheeks and a girls tie in front blouse.
    I was good looking and not flaming but definitely gay in manners and got all the attention I wanted. When I walked thru a crowd, my ass would attract hands. I would get a hard on when guys were hitting on me and that made me even more desired. When the right guy chatted me up, I would go out to his or my car and let him do whatever he wanted with me. Sometime we would make out and other times I would go down on him. After doing this with several dates, I would find a dark place to park, do some more pot and fix myself up pretty and get out of the car and walk hooker style. When guys came up to me, I would let my fem side out completely and if I liked them, would tell them to park and I would walk over and get in their car. Sometimes the guys were straight but just wanted to walk on the wild side. Sometimes they were married and just needed a blowjob. Mostly, they were gay and wanted sex. Sometimes, I followed them to a nearby no tell motel for an ass pounding fucking. Sometimes after having several dates I would sit in my car and strip down to panties and stroke my cock and wait to see who saw me and would come over. Guys liked seeing me that way. Nude and kinky and knowing I would suck them off!

  • Married and the kids are out on their own my husband gave me cruise for my 50th birthday present. We flew to Italy and caught the cruise around the Mediterranean. On board we met a German couple and we got along well and had dinner with them a couple of times so we invited them to our cabin for a before dinner drink and chat. The husbands sat out on the veranda and had a smoke and a whiskey and the ladies sat inside and had a glass of wine.

    The talk went from one topic to the other and then it landed on our life before marriage and some of our experiences. She was a bit too open for my taste, telling me how she had been in love with the girl next door. She had those distant eyes and she told me how they had their first time together and how she was in love after that. But her family was Lutheran and her father was a very strict man and he objected to her being in love with the girl next door so he found her husband and had her marry him. Wow!! To think that this 50 plus woman had been married to this man for 30 years and she was still in love with the girl next door.

    Somehow this brought us together in a special way, I told her a little about some of my high school crushes and my college experience losing my virginity and how I met my husband and at work and he seemed to offer the security that I was looking for. But her story of her love for the girl next door was just too much. In that twenty or so minute conversation she told me that once she was married she stayed with him and never followed her heart and never made love with her girlfriend.

    We got home from our cruise and I went back to work at my somewhat boring job at the insurance office where I work and my husband went back to his job. One of the young girls at my work flirts a lot with me. I had never put it together, she was flirting not just being friendly and I asked her to lunch and one weekend after that I asked her to go with me to this quilt show and I was friendly to her and she was very friendly to me. I kissed her at the quilt show and she didn't say anything so I kissed her lips again and said I hoped she didn't mind. I asked her to show me where she lived and we went there and I asked her for a kiss, this time I asked her for a kiss to make up for all the kisses we had missed, I undressed her slowly playing with her as I took off this and that and let her undress me. There were lots of kisses and gentle massages of her breasts but I was intent of doing what I wanted, I opened her legs and tasted a girl for the very first time.

    She and I have a wonderful close relationship and we have made love so many times that you stop counting, long sensuous kisses, full body massage, and she was always so ready to let me open her legs and show her how much I want to make love to her. I didn't have a girl next door to love when I was growing up, and I felt bad about feeling the way I did, I waited until I was almost through college before I let a guy have sex with me so that I could say I did, I married my husband because he was a good catch but never felt wild for him. No, over the years from time to time I found myself with feelings for a neighbor or a coworker or a young woman at the mall. After listening to the story of the lost love of my German friend on the cruise I decided that was enough. I came home and I let the girl at work know just how big my feelings for her are and try to show her everyday that she is the love of my heart. I am not going to walk away anymore.