I am just going to write down my feelings, because they are in overdrive.
Last night I slept with a girl and we had girl sex. She is a lesbian, as I found out, but I am not. I liked it and not just a little bit, kissing her and sucking on her tits did things to me and when I went down on her I just couldn't stop until she had an orgasm. She kicked me in the chest and the face. She sucked on my tit afterwards, for several very long minutes. It drove me crazy, I wanted to get banged, to feel a cock. I was so horny and I shoved her down until she sucked on my pussy and bit my clit drawing blood. It hurt like nothing I have ever experienced, it is so sore and tender right now I can't wear pants.
I had to go home, I couldn't stay the night with her. I lay up all night asking myself why I did this. She works with me and is my lunch buddy. I didn't know she was a lesbian but I think I had doubts because she never mentioned any men in her life. There was a birthday party for the head of HR and we went to this club which turned out to be an all girl's club, the men's room sign was crossed out and an open set of legs replaced the sign on the door. Women danced to far out music, it was wild, groping on couches, making out in the hall to the bathroom, stealing kisses at the bar. The 'girls' ordered a dancer for the birthday girl, she got up on the table of this large booth we were all sitting in and stripped down to nothing, until she was completely naked and ended her dance by squatting and spreading for the birthday girl. My lunch buddy was hanging on to me, she had put my arm around her and she was pushing her face into my tit, she grabbed my face and kissed me, she declared her love to me in front of all those coworkers. She wanted to pee and I found out that you don't let your girlfriend loose, you take her to the bathroom, you go into the stall with her, she pees and then you pee, you kiss her nose and forehead and lips and cheeks, you practically make love to her right there on the toilet. You dance with her, grinding and humping, you make out on the dance floor, you go back to your booth to the girls chanting that Leslie is getting lucky tonight.
I went home with her, she has a roommate she shares a room and bed with and she kicked her roommate to the couch and got naked and spread eagled herself on the bed asking me for tits. All I could think about was the number of times I had laid myself out like that for a man to fuck me, I didn't know what to do so I did what the men did, get on her and grope her tits and finger her and go down on her. That's when I ate her out. Her pussy was so wet and slippery and my tongue just roamed in and out and all around, I couldn't stop eating her until she came and kicked me off.
After we settled down she called her roommate to come and get in bed with us. It hurt my feelings, I felt this jealousy rise in me until my head hurt. Watching her cuddle her roommate, kissing her face and telling her how pretty she was when she was sleepy like that. I left. I just couldn't stay there. She tried to keep me there but I just couldn't sleep all together with them, plus by then I was realizing just what I had done.
I am jealous right now, it hurts me to think of her hugging her girlfriend in front of me. I have to work with her and we have been lunch buddies for several months, since I started working there. I can't face her right now, not just because of what we did but also because of her girlfriend. I called in sick. I have had my share of one night stands, but never with someone I had to face the next day. Never with anyone that I feel should be mine. I don't like to share, even as a kid I never liked to share my toys.