A Missed Possible Orgy Or Gangbang

When I was around 8-12 don’t remember exactly, I was hanging out with a childhood guy friend in his apartment whose family were out for most of the day and rest of the night (lived with his mom and sis who I assume would be out with a boyfriend usually or busy with work. So he’d have the appointment to himself a lot of the time was very independent) He was around same age as me or a little older I think. Anyways it started getting late when two of his and my guy friends showed up. Them I remember being older at around 13-15. Wasn’t just them who showed up though, three girls showed up too. One was a girlfriend of one of the guys that showed upI remember that for sure. The other two, one maybe was a girlfriend of the other guy friend or interested in him, the other pretty sure was just a friend of the girls. The two girlfriends were around 13-15, the other was around my age. They all came inside into the living room greeting my friend and me. Me being a very innocent and naive kid I just sat back down on the couch by the TV kept on watching TV or gaming. The guys just sat wherever, the three girls were all sitting on the couch by the door. One ended up asking me randomly if I thought the youngest girl was cute and if I liked her. I was more just curious on why she would ask that than embarrassed or shocked. Shyly turned towards the girls, looked at the youngest and said yeah she looked cute and seemed nice. Went back to watching TV, but, then the girl who asked me the question and seemed like the oldest hottest and most confident got up and sat right next to me, ended up casually and slowly massaging my right thigh cause she was on my right side. She was wearing a pretty revealing outfit too along with having a fit slender figure to go with it. Had on a pair of shorty shorts, no socks just bare feet, and a spaghetti strap tank top with no bra. Now, at the time I had seen a bit of porn but not really much just some on the internet mostly in some movies and video game sex scenes briefly. So I didn’t have much of a sex drive or curiosity yet. I didn’t really respond to her just let her do it. Felt nice but stayed focused on the TV. She stopped and I ended up hearing her or one of the girls say, I feel bad he’s so innocent. Along with some giggles. I just shrugged it off and she ended up lying down. After a bit of just usual chatter, one of my friends decided we should play a game that I think if I remember right I passed on participating. The game was who could cum the most. Measured by going into the friend’s room that I was visiting for privacy, masturbating to some porn using his computer, and cumming on to a napkin or rag to see who would the most. The girls seemed to not mind at all. Friend I was visiting went first. Wasn’t much maybe he didn’t feel in the mood to. Next one of the other friends, he came out with a huge amount but he was just joking it was lotion that was in the room. The last was the friend who I knew one of the two older girls were his girlfriend. He ended up nudging her to lick it when he came out with his results but she declined, was bothered or grossed out at all though. I know this all sounds really weird for a kid my age to not be weirded out but as I’ve said I was very innocent and naive minded. It was getting to be about the time I should go home (I lived next door upstairs, it was an apartment complex). I ended up really wanting to sleepover because the girls were either gonna sleepover too or least just spend more time there. But my friend that I was visiting ended up persistently nudging me to go home. He kept asking me why I wanted to sleepover and I just responded that I wanted to keep hanging out. But I think I was also starting to figure out in the back of my mind that they all might be wanting to have sex with each other or together and I was wanting to be part of that. I ended up just agreeing that I’ll be going to not be too pushy but, before I left, the for sure girlfriend asked her boyfriend if she could kiss me. I was pretty embarrassed but didn’t mind if allowed. He was hesitant so he settled for me kissing her on the cheek instead. I did it, she smiled and giggled as I shyly left. That was my first kiss on the cheek I ever gave and I just kinda stood for a bit on the stairs leading up to the apartment I lived it. Thinking how nice it was that I kissed a girl on the cheek but, also regretting not trying to be more mature or realizing that the girls were nudging and inviting me for a good time. I wonder every now and then if I had been more mature and realized what they were doing or going to do, if I had stayed, what I could’ve experienced. Sometimes I regret missing it would’ve been hot I’m sure. Sometimes I don’t it’s possible it could’ve messed me up mentally. Very conflicting but yeah, who knows. I’m not too bothered by it now after so many years more just wonder.